Saturday, July 2
- Difficult day
- Phone isnt working — cannot get anything but wifi
- Spent like 9 hours trying to make it work, sitting in the same spot outside trying to figure it out
- Why am I even doing this? OCD? Safety? Cant be alone with myself?
- Upset that I sat in one spot and am not out enjoying more
- Upset that I don’t have the balls to just mess up and figure it out as I go — working on this
- Got pretty depressed/suicidal
- Wanted to come home
- Wish someone else was here with me, but also not so I can do my own thing
- I hope it gets easier/better/different than today
- Only day 5 lol
- This will be what I make of it
- Oh, didn’t go to Ambassadors pig roast
- Invite only, the fuck Charlie!